Andy Worhol-

Everybody must have a fantasy. In the future everyone will be world famous for fifteen minutes. I wonder if its possible to have a love affair that lasts forever. But i always say ones a company, twos a crowd, threes a party. Think rich, look poor. There should be a course in first grade on how to love. Wasting money puts you in a real party mood. I am a deeply superficial person. I never read i just look at pictures. It takes alot of work to figure out how to look good. The idea of waiting for something makes it more exciting. I think everybody should like everybody.

This man had a lot to say for himself.

i love my mother

I spent my evening watching crap tv and eating ice-cream. Spent my weekend in bed with William, as nothing happens these days. I was just about to blog about these KG sandals that i want, i went onto the website, to show my mother how much i love/want them she thought she wouldnt sneakily order me a pair to raise my mood as i lost my Links Of London bracelet this weekend. I love my mum so much. No matter how much were always at eachothers throat, she means the world to me. XXX

would say

as he would say, i need to 'man up'

as she would say, i need to keep my 'chin up'

so thats what im doing to do. cant really complain. have a best friend who continuously listens to all the crap i have to tell her. and him who puts a smile on my face and manages to keep it there.

to improve my day, i was told to do some retail therapy which my friend.. thats means shopping!! so shopping is what im going to do, brent cross hopefully. i need to get out. sort out his stuff and be strong enough to give it back to him tomorrow (i wont be able to do it without a number of tears) but i've finally found someone who will put me first. so typing this with a smile on my face is alot better than all the teary posts yesterday! come on lana. chin up x

'his best days will be some of my worst'

on a happier note

you know i really care, but im not going to show it because it just makes me look stupid
it takes 17 muscles to smile and 43 muscles to frown.
so keep smiling.

"im going to leave the day behind, dont you worry, because im going to have a real good time"

little things that make me happy

-accidentally overhearing someone being nice about you
-waking up knowing you have a few more hours to sleep
-first kisses
-making new friends, but spending time with the old ones
-nice dreams
-hot chocolate
-good hair days
-holding hands
-my best friend.
(so shalow of me, but the new marc jacobs bag that im in love with)

im a happy bunny this morning

sorted everything out with him yesterday, left his house with a smile. did take us long enough to sort it out, i sat watching him play x box, and watch a stupid really not funny TV programme which worsened my mood by far! and someone random just popped up on facebook chat, who i didn't even know i had on facebook, with a really cute compliment. now time for breakfast and i cant take a smile off my face? i guess that's a good thing though xxx
So thanks to you. thanks to him. and thanks to random facebooker. :) oh and also to florence and the machine, b.o.b. and marina and the diamonds. 'i never wanted anything from you, except everything you had and what was left after that too'
I NEED TO STOP BLOGGING BEFORE SCHOOL. ITS 12 PAST. IM ALREADY LATE.
and still tucke up in bed with my cereal and bowl of strawberrys in my pjs.
opppps.

im smiling

the thought of waking up knowing i'm going to post a 'smile its Friday' post. definitely puts a smile upon my face.

nothing on you

"i could be chasing but my time would be wasting. they got nothing on you baby"

my mum had her friends round tonight, they never fail to put a smile on my face, practising driving lisence pictures. talking about all there work, family, lives and everyone single ones shitty ex husband! they asked what i what do i want to be in 5 years? i didnt know what to reply except from 'happy'. tonight had an arguement with him, hopefully will patch things up tomorrow, as he gets to spend an hour in geography revision with me. he makes me ever so happy, happier than ive been in a long while. another thing that puts a smile on my face is this picture

please put me in a huge chanel bag and drag me along a beach?

good night bloggers. xoxo

'i want'

i want to be happy. i want breakfast in bed. i want my room to tidy itself. i want you to want me. i want to have a night like last night every weekend. i want to get my gcses over with. i want to get on with my family. i want you to know who i am. i want to be happy. i want 18 pillows on my bed. i want a roast today. i want the rain to go away. i want a topshop gold card. i want to pass all my gsce's. i want to live in the countryside. i want to wear my ugss 24-7. i want to be older. i want purple hair. i want to be happy. i want to be wiser. i want the sun to be out. i want to drive. i want to be tanned all the time. i want the grass to be greener on this side. i want someone to listen. i want you to call me wiggy. i want a simple relationship. i want to leave school. i want to be happy. i want facebook to get out my life. i want money. i want to wear your jumper to bed. i want to have a snow ball fight. i want to be on a beach. i want to not think about you. i want to talk about life. i want to laugh until i cant breathe. i want to be happy.

happiness

things that make me happy;
-going out with the girls
-my blackberry
-buying clothes
-buying more clothes
-the sun

-jonathan shipp
-texts that make me smile
-anything chanel & marc jacobs
-my mother
-'what happens in vegas'
-my nans ray bans
-BBQ's